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Rant [directed to adult figures on facebook]

Wed Oct 21, 2009, 8:26 PM
  • Mood: Rant
  • Listening to: Lifehouse - From Where You Are
Don't want to listen to be rant and rave about my issues? That's great, don't. I'm not forcing you to.

To sum this up if you don't want to read every forsaken word I've written: I'm not a horrible person. I don't care what you think, but it bugs the crap out of me. So I guess I technically do care. Posting things on facebook is just another way of expressing myself, instead of ripping off someone's face. Or would you rather I rip off someone's face? Yes, I've heard your opinion. Obviously it doesn't matter much to me if I continue doing it. If you don't want to hear my crap...go away.

But if you DO want to read every one of the many sentences, feel free.

I'm not a horrible person.
I'm not a horrible person. Okay? I'm not. I swear I'm not. I may not go throwing all my money (all what, $0 of it?) at charity, and I might not skip around throwing daisies at everyone, but at least I try. I go to church about twice a week on average, whenever I can help it. I get up and DRAG my parents out of bed just so I can get a ride there. They drop me off and come pick me up in an hour. My parents hardly ever bother to stay. I go every. single. week, relentlessly, and I try and try to read my bible whenever I get the chance. Just because what you see of me doesn't make you think "Ohh my gosh that person is SUCH AN AWESOME PERSON" or "WHOA WHAT A CHRISTIAN!!" doesn't mean I'm a horrible person.

I don't care what you think, but it bugs the crap out of me. So I guess I technically do care.
It doesn't matter what other people think about me, but it definitely gets to be a huge pain in the butt. HUGE. What matters is what God thinks of me, so if you could all stop being super judgmental about me, it would be appreciated. I'm not the best person in the world, but I'm not the worst. And honestly, the picture of me is definitely not 100% accurate. You might know some things about me, but you might THINK other things about me that definitely aren't true. So stop judging, and stop and think for a few seconds about what I might do when you're not around.

It's just another way of expressing myself, instead of ripping off someone's face. Or would you rather I rip off someone's face?
My Facebook statuses don't make me a horrible person. They might not paint the best image of me. But seriously? I don't rant out loud. I don't get mad and scream at everyone. I express myself in other ways, I TRY not to start fights, I do my best in school. And what do I get for it? People telling me that I'm not good enough, I need to try harder, I need to BE MY BEST, and I am certainly not who I say I am. But I think I AM good enough, I'm good enough for God, and that's what really counts. It wouldn't matter to God if I killed a thousand people on purpose, and tortured every one of them for days before they died. He'd still love me. But would you? Probably not. You'd probably be scared out of your mind that you'd be next, whenever you saw me. Not to mention I'd hate MYSELF. But God would still love me, he doesn't care. He loves everyone, unconditionally. Why can't you at least try to be the same way? You say you love me, but have you NOT heard the expression "Actions speak louder than words"? If my way of expressing myself offends you, don't pay attention to it. Get away from me. You've tried to help, it's done nothing. So don't try anymore. Because if you cut off my one way to get out all this pent up anger and whatnot, then I will certainly blow up on YOU because YOU are the obstacle standing in my way.

Yes, I've heard your opinion.
I can not tell you how many people have told me "You say you're Christian, try acting like it" in the past couple weeks. Or told me off for saying something 'un-Christian-like.' God forgives, okay? It doesn't mean that I should abuse that, but still. Telling me something a THOUSAND TIMES is NOT going to get me to stop. It will tick me off to no end, sure. But get me to do what you want? No. Try asking nicely. Or don't ask at all, and just kindly allow me to rant at you instead of plastering my hatred or sadness or fury all over my facebook page. Talk to me. It is NOT that hard.

If you don't want to hear it...go away.
If the way I express myself OVER FACEBOOK upsets you, defriend me. It's how I'll express myself when I don't have another way, so you're going to have to get used to the pathetic little statuses about how I hate this, and how I'm frustrated, and how my life is screwed over at the moment, as long as you're my facebook friend - and as long as you decide NOT to get involved with MY issues, which would make me ten times less likely to swear if I'm talking to YOU SPECIFICALLY, people who do not want me to swear, or even imply swearing, or whatever. If you're not willing to stop being judgmental, then you can go take me off your friends list, because I'm NOT going to listen to people giving me crap because they're judging me when they have no right whatsoever. You are not perfect either. I will not listen to you telling me not to do something because it's TECHNICALLY your fault. If you don't want to see it anymore, talk to me, see how I'm doing, and if I feel the need to tell off life itself, then I will do it to you instead of the entire facebooking world.

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The story behind the rant: In the past couple weeks, tons of 'adult figures' as I'll put it have said that 1) I swear like a sailor on my facebook [untrue] 2) I swear like a sailor on my facebook STATUSES [also untrue] 3) I swear like a sailor in COMMENTS [noticed the pattern yet?]. Only occasionally do swearwords slip out, and these 'adult figures' happen to stumble across every such slip, and they get these messed up ideas that I'm freakin' cussing my mouth off. Just because I get a little pissed every once in awhile DOES NOT MEAN that I swear like a sailor. GEEZ. My uncle CALLED MY MOM to tell her that I swore on my facebook. And then I got chewed out at youth group for saying 'f this.' Because, apparently, it's okay to say 'dang' in the place of 'damn' but not 'f' in the place of 'frick.' So yeah. I'm sort of in a predicament of extreme dislike for all 'adult figures' at the moment.

Oh yeah, did I mention that when I was getting yelled at during youth group, my friends were in the same room? And they completely took the adults' side, and THEN basically got out of trouble once the attention was completely on me? I sort of can't help but think 'traitors.' Ugh. But whatever. Screw life. I'll figure something out.

Congratulations on reading all this. You've earned yourself an imaginary cookie. It's sitting on the imaginary stove. In the imaginary kitchen.

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~sasorach123 1 day 21 hours ago
Good evening miss Cookie! :iconrainbowwaveplz1::iconrainbowwaveplz2::iconrainbowwaveplz3:

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~PATiWACKiSWACKi 1 day 20 hours ago
Good...afternoon?
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~sasorach123 1 day 20 hours ago
but i just woke up! lol :rofl:

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I know thats y i did it :iconhyperplz:

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~AnenaLynne 2 days 21 hours ago
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~sasorach123 4 days 15 hours ago
was up my cooookie! ^^ i cant wait till break! lol

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